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So on my way home from the football game today, I got a text message from someone saying that their boyfriends dad had passed away. It seems like in my life, people are passing away like every month... I never met the guy, but I know exactly what him and his mom are going thru. It's a feeling that no one should ever face. I know its a part of life.. but I just get so angered when good people die and people that like murder people or rape people..they still live. It's this kinda thing that makes me question how I feel about God. I won't say what I feel because I know people will just get mad about it, so I'm not even going to bother. But ugh, I just hate death. hate it. hate it. hate it.

Wow is the only word I can say when I think about cheerleading. I love cheerleading, I really do. I quit an all-star team to cheer for football season this year and i can honestly say, it was one of the biggest mistakes I ever made. This season has been horriable. It wasn't a single person, or even certian people. It was just everything all together. This is my last time I am ever going to cheer in my life. It breaks my heart knowing that I will never be in uniform again, never out on the floor with loads of make-up on competing for first place, ever again. This season, we had to combine with JV. I feel so bad for the JV girls because they were all set and ready to go to competion, until we came. But its not our fault that we had to combine, so I have different feelings about that. However, none of the Varsity girls seem to care. Most of the Varisty girls have jobs and musical so its hard to attend all pratices and I totally understand that. However, there are just a couple girls that seem to not care AT ALL. It's very fustrating. No one wants to go to competion, but I do! This is my last year. I don't care if we look like idiots, even if we were to pratice all the time and be good.. we will still never compare to bigger schools that can do awesome stunts and tumbling. I still think we need to go out there and cheer our hearts out. I get kinda mad when people say they dont want to go, its like why did we put all this work into it than? I just want to go and compete for one more final time and I hope at least some girls agree with me and I hope that we can put this together...

I have created this blog for myself. What I write in here is what I'm feeling, my pesonal opinions about things. I don't need this blog to create any drama for me. If you don't like or agree with anything that I write about.. you can either blog back your responce or simply don't read it. I'm a very opionated person and if you think your going to get mad at anything I say, than click the [x] right now and leave.. I don't need more drama just because I have an opinion.

Anyways, I'm creating this blog because I have alot of things going on in my head right now.. there is always this and that, whether its cheerleading, work, school, friends, guy problems there is always something going on. I want a place where I can freely say what I want and I believe this is where I can do it. Right now, there really isn't anything that I want to talk about.. except the fact that I'm hungry and the school lunch today is gross. But thats okay. I'll just drink milk. gross.